I just returned from a Beth Moore Conference, where I learned something about myself. Other than the usual revelations, this one was more profound. All my life I have struggled with poor self esteem that stems from the lack of relationship with my father. I always felt that I must not be important enough to bother with, since my own father didn't care enough to spend much time with me at all. Of course, I'm older now and much wiser. I realize that was not necessarily the case. That my dad actually had a lot of stuff going on inside and to deal with himself. He really didn't know how to be a good father. Still, the ramifications effected my thinking and the way I saw myself for years. Even though I thought I had dealt with things, the root problem was still lurking about in the shadows of my mind. The scripture that comes to mind is in Exodus 20:4 "...Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished, he punishes the children and their children for the sins of the fathers up to the third and fourth generation of those who hate the Lord, but showing love to a thousand generations of those who love the Lord." Close up on the bold words. I don't ever remember hearing about the but in that scripture during any sermon. What a conjunction to be left out. There is so much meaning in that but. What a difference a simple little conjunction makes in light of the condemnation I have felt for years simply because of my genetic gene pool.
I don't know how many times I heard the phrase your Heavenly Father loves you more than anything this weekend alone. As Beth Moore said, "He can't not love you, because you are part of Him and He can't deny Himself." We are all part of God's DNA gene pool, when we are God's adopted spiritual children and spiritually born again into His likeness. He could never withhold His love from us any more than a mother could keep from loving and caring for her newborn baby. The thought that my life could actually effect others for a thousand generations is pretty ominous. It is my greatest desire at this time in my life to leave a lasting legacy. This is why I write passionately. I am working hard to perfect my craft and to write something worthwhile that will reach people way beyond what I could possibly do on my own, beyond what I could ask or think. With God's love and the power of His Spirit, I can do all things through Christ Jesus, who loves me. And so can you. "Yes, Jesus loves me. The Bible tells me so."
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Blessings my sister in Christ in the security of our heavenly Father's Love.
ReplyDeletePrecious to hear of your revelation through Beth Moore this weekend.
Thinking about the song, Our God is an Awesome God.....sing on
Prayer: Father bless Suzy with assurance of Your Salvation, Deliverance, and Healing as well as Your love for her and all her household to a thousand generations in Jesus name and by Your Spirit who gives her life. Amen.